[[How has been]]

Saturday, October 31, 2009

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been playing alot. feel scared. but not behaving like im scared. whats wrong? duno.
in darkthrone ive been actively farming some people. nice. maebe they will complain to their alliances. and they will mass attack me. then i can reset my account. and post your account has been resetted. IM FREE! until then... lol. ok people. warmup over. monday is the start of the real thing. all teh best.
Im trying to semi study. so time passes slower than when i fully play. lol. what crabshiet is this. idk. abit bad. and my cousin is persistantly irritating me. he keeps attempting to kick my charger. and keeps smacking me. if he wus bigger i wood punch him. but hes nt. owells.

[[I wrote this at]]*|3:11 PM|

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

[[English]]

Its bad. Yes. Bad. Idk what went wrong with me la. Firstly i spent too much time on the situational. And i thot I did that quite well. Den moving on to the essay i had only liek 40+ minutes left. OH RIGHT. I STILL HAD MY usual exam habit of. WASTING THE FIRST 5-10 minutes. Bah. I keep reading the question. and re-reading the question. And re-reading the question. And i DECIDED ON THE FORMAT. WA. TAKE SO LONG TO DECIDE ON THE FORMAT. Nvm. I think the situational was well done, in my opinion. and i followed the points aha! speek about interpretating entire dreams through opposites.

Nao. The Essay was bad la. Like, Bad. I tried to do something showy. -.- Read too muych book already. Den write until left 15mins i nt yet reach climax. WTH. WTHWTHWTH. !!!. and i think i didnt really show te teacher why that retarded guy helped the other guy... o my. And i teh end he gort punished. is that unexpected? he broke out of jail to help the other guy... -.- OH MY. AND AT THE LAST 5 MINS BEFORE COLLECTING. I THOT OF A REALLY GOOD ONE liner THAT COOD BRING MY ESSAY BACK ON POINT. but being such a honest me i didnt write it. walaoooooo. anw i think it might still pass as on-point if the teacher is not very strict. And if that happens, all will be well. Or so i think. ok bai

[[I wrote this at]]*|7:18 AM|

Friday, October 23, 2009

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My life feels really great now. Seriously. No sacarsm. I feel so floaty and just, happy, even while doing what little revision I do. Whee.

[[I wrote this at]]*|6:21 PM|

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

[[400th post!]]

not bad eh? i wonder hw many have more than me.
Ohwell, whats there to say. Ive been trying to study cos i like to study. but not really, very, sucessful. But nevertheless, ive tried. not very hard thou, but still, tried.

Hmm. I hope that everything will go well until after the O levels. I.E, i dont die or anything.

[[I wrote this at]]*|8:34 AM|

Friday, October 16, 2009

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Bah. Nobody has time to talk with me now. Sian.

I know i should study, i know i have to study. I know i am making excuses not to study. I know the consequences of not studying. I know my O levels are important (maybe not). I know I can do well if I study. Why am I not study?

Cos im lazy.
Cos im bereft of motivation.
Cos nobody studies with me.
Cos the above are all excuses.
Cos

I found my motivation. Its to be happy while studying, as studying is meaningful.

[[I wrote this at]]*|8:12 PM|

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

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I think im stuupid. What is wrong with me? aiyah, i dk what im doing. Feeling queer. Very. I wonder what the reason could be... I think I know, yet i refuse to acknowledge it. Im fricking afraid. Yet i do nothing to ease my fear. What has become of me?

The feeling of emptiness is back. This sucks, much. This is very bad.

[[I wrote this at]]*|11:18 AM|

Monday, October 12, 2009

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ive been thinking about something lately.

[[I wrote this at]]*|8:32 PM|

Sunday, October 11, 2009

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Hello.
So, I guess that my last lesson in Xinmin Secondary is over.
Thats so great eh?
It feels like it was only yesterday that i stepped foot into xinmin.
Ohwell, lets blog abt the last day.

Ohwell, hai. I do suppose i wood miss my friends after im out of xinmin. I do hope we keep in contact. And seriously mean it.

Oh where did that personal recount go?

Ohwell. On the last day, we took many many many photos. And played some games. Some waterbombing thing. How nice. Den we went to VJC. For teh open hse. How nice is that? Yar den we saw the mass dance thingy. I think its really great. And im impressed by the future prospects of their chess team. If that viet guy joins.
EDIT: VJC CUT OFF BETTER STAY AT 4. IF NOT IM GONNA BAWL. WHY DID I FRICKIN DROP HMT?

[[I wrote this at]]*|9:12 PM|

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

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I should guess that everyone is studying for their O levels. Do remember that O levels is not everything. Why? Id rather fail my O levels than lose my little finger.

[[I wrote this at]]*|8:35 PM|

Friday, October 2, 2009

[[lovesong.]]

Whenever I'm alone with you You make me feel like I am home again Whenever I'm alone with you You make me feel like I am whole again Whenever I'm alone with you You make me feel like I am young again Whenever I'm alone with you You make me feel like I am fun again However far away I will always love you However long I stay I will always love you Whatever words I say I will always love you I will always love you Whenever I'm alone with you You make me feel like I am free again Whenever I'm alone with you You make me feel like I am clean again However far away I will always love you However long I stay I will always love you Whatever words I say I will always love you I will always love you

[[I wrote this at]]*|9:27 PM|

Thursday, October 1, 2009

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The instant the door closed behind me, I could feel the tension. The air was thick, stale and leadened; it seemed to oppose to my breathing in of it. It seemed to cackle with electricity. The source of the electricity were the eyes of the players. Large dark pupils of a multitude of competitors bored into me, static emanated from them, surging into my own sight organs. I tried to turn away, to break contact, but the eyes kept me in their stranglehold. After much probing, it seemed, they narrowed to slits, their mouths curved upwards in contempt. After being immobilised, frozen for so long, stunned by their ferocity, the door opened once more providing a much needed distraction. I willed my neck to turn, it obeyed after some internal resistance. I staggered to my seat, holding on to the armrests for support while reaching for a drink. And another. I slumped down, shoulders hunched, working furiously, desperately to regain control of my mind that had been blitzkrieged.

Hmm. When i read other people's blog or hear other people say how many A1s they are going to get. I feel weird. No, i actually make a mental note to bring one more pack of tissue when we get back our O level results.

[[I wrote this at]]*|7:17 PM|